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Rinse and RepeatI feel I feel I feelRinse and Repeat by deideiblueeyez
This love can only ever be real
I do I do I do
Want to spend forever with you
I know I know I know
You lie when you tell me "Go"
I see I see I see
You're the only one for me
I think I think I think
My brain is starting to shrink
I hold I hold I hold
Your face in my hand's mould
I taste I taste I taste
Your tears which are such a waste
I touch I touch I touch
Your screams must be hushed
I say I say I say
You can never run away
I tear I tear I tear
Your dress to leave you bare
I feel I feel I feel
This love can only ever be real
FlightAs the sun slowly set behind a particularly tall apartment building in Dublin, a wheezing figure leaned wearily against the moldy bricks of a foreclosed shop. Pushing back wet strands of hair the color of dirty straw with one hand, the other clutched the shifting bundle to her chest more securely.Flight by deideiblueeyez
Just a few minutes..just a few minutes here, to collect herself...Oh God it felt like her crotch was on fire. Blood was still flowing down her legs, the rivulets draining into the pair of work boots she snatched up from his closet before he could notice. Well, he was bound to notice that not only were his favorite pair of boots were missing, but his wallet and her as well.
A rueful smile was interrupted by a gasp of pain as a wave of ache pulsed between her legs. The girl bit her lip then switched to clenching her teeth when blood began to coat the tip of her tongue. Damn it, God damn it.
She bent over to wipe the blood on her legs with the hem of her now grungy dress, taking care to keep her
FlowerAngel wished that she could stand in the rain.Flower by deideiblueeyez
She never did as a little girl--she recalls an early memory of her father warning her that doing so could give her a cold. And as she floats within her shielded cage, she wishes that she could have taken a handful of grass before he put her here.
Anything to remind her that the world outside was not a cleverly constructed illusion by her father, or even by herself, but something tangible, something real.
He visits her every day, if he can. Her skin crawls when she hears him utter those dreadful words he had chosen for his password. They were full of lies, the password: "I Love You". Her mother said those to her very often, when she was around...her father did so as well, but it was not with the same...manipulative nuance as it did now.
Thinking on all this..made her dizzy...she needed to lie down. Not too long, because then the systems would be left unattended and then Jack would scream at her over the ECHO..
He was ha
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Before I tell you what I like, I might as well give you some info on who I really am, though you can't REALLY understand who I am and what I'm like until you meet me face-to-face, but that costs extra
I'm a Caucasian chick, Virgo, average height and weight for my age. I am diagnosed with ADD/ADHD and Asperger's, or at least "educational autism"...Don't worry, I have one or the other for real, because how else can you explain my horrible childhood concerning older kids chasing me on their bikes? O__O And YES I AM diagnosed. I've been to doctors and counselors since 4th grade, been in a special education program since 3rd grade, and have been at "evaluation meetings" for my "label" at school since 7th grade. So don't say I just read about it and said "Hey, that's me!" ... This has caused me a lot of confusion, tears, depression, suicidal thoughts, homicidal thoughts, and general nihilism, so don't tell me I don't know what I'm talking about.
I am blunt, frank, open, and honest about my ideas and what I believe is the truth, as well as impartial to the point of appearing to work for both sides or..aah, on-the-fence. I call out on hypocrisy. I am not afraid to get physical with people, though in reality I am a wuss when it comes to pain, for I am hypersensitive to bright lights as well as my hair, which I go to great lengths to avoid anyone touching except a hairstylist or myself.
I am an avid fan of the anime/manga Naruto, as well as other various anime and manga. My most favorite character in the whole wide world is Deidara
I am still trying to figure myself out. Though I've come a long way from elementary school to high school and beyond. But I'm growing (hopefully) everyday.
I'm a little detached at times, I've combated SERIOUS depression, feelings of self-hate, bullies, my own insecurities and general distrust of people as well as trying to come to terms with the fact that I am not like other people: I CAN'T seem to connect like everyone else, and that coupled with butting heads with other classmates made me have a major meltdown 8th grade and freshman year. I am only just opening up to DeviantArt, probably one of the enablers of my self-hatred and low self esteem, but I WANT to be good at something I like to do. Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing something because I truly love to do it or if I'm just tilling away so that one day I can be considered one of the "greats" in that particular field...
Also, if I offend anyone, I'm sorry, I don't really mean to on purpose. The internet is a very shaky place to maneuver around in; I'm sure many things would be cleared up if we had 24/7 face cams that we could use to communicate with each other. That way we wouldn't have misunderstandings via text or written word. Words carry no emotion or tones, so many hidden "cues" are lost...
But yeah.. let's get onto what I love and hate
Contemporary Hard Rock, Grunge, Post-Grunge, Progressive Rock/Metal, 60s oldies, Folk rock, sea shanties, Gregorian chanting, K-Pop, 70s, African spirituals, Indian Classical, and Voyageur rowing songs
Surfing the web
Being right! (When I AM right; not saying I'm right all the time)
Order and structure
Relaxing in quiet places
Astrology/Zodiac (I'm a Virgo)
Learning new things
Compliments...(I feel human when receiving compliments..especially from an esteemed artist or teacher...otherwise they go over my head and I don't really believe it when "regular people" tell me I'm good.. meh)
Racism and prejudice
Feeling lonely and lonely people
Rap, hip-hop, current R&B fused with any of the previous two genres, country, emo, screamo, "scene" music
Crying (Me, I mean..but I hate it when babies and children cry too..)
Disrespect towards total strangers
Exposure to the sun
Being out of the loop
Saying sorry for things I'm NOT sorry for
Children, spec. bratty ones that I can't slap upside the head for being inexcusably rude to their parents and to absolute strangers
Large groups of people
Scientology, Mormonism, Jehovah's Witness (not the people per se, just their ideologies)
Republicans, Fox News, and people who say all liberals are lazy (I'm lazy, but my Mom is a facking hard worker. So you shut up.)
Trolls and immature people on the internet (yeah they're there, but seriously, I really pray they all get AIDS..)
Teenagers who only JUST REALIZE that... GASP!!! .. there are serious issues out there! And they don't involve the mall, or dates, or their home town, or homecoming! (FLIPPING SERIOUSLY. It took you a fucking HISTORY CLASS to realize millions of men, women, and children are being sold for sex or labor all over the world? Get a fucking clue, you assnozzle)
Lots and lots of leg hair and arm hair, as well as eyebrows that are too close together.. I'm sorry, it just makes me wanna take a razor and shave you! (shivers)
People who make excuses for their favorite celebrities' blatantly illegal/harmful activities (Chris Brown, Justin Bieber, Dahvie Vanity..you fans KNOW who you are)
12 and 22 year old males (don't ask me how or why, I just DON'T)
Jokes about peoples' diseases, unless the person suffering from the disease makes the joke in the first place (Example: Michael J. Fox. I only find it funny if HE jokes about his Parkinson's, no one else other than other sufferers..)
Models that don't smile when showing off their clothes (You'd look so much PRETTIER if you smiled, or at least smirked)
Velvet (Don't ask .__. )
Wolfaboos (All of you, fall off the Earth)
Just to be clear, I don't belong to any party, though my family is considered to be Democrat. Republicans were okay I guess in the past, but now it's just downright embarrassing and backwards the way they're tromping around nowadays...
I would like to say to anyone who my work or me that I really, really appreciate your support. I sometimes think that you who do those things are the only ones who understand me.
~Aww, sappy moment.
I LOVE LLAMAS! I will fave, llama, and possibly watch.
I don't really comment on work unless it's super striking, something from a fandom that makes me want to scream "YES!!! ", or super funny...because what CAN I say? Really? Especially ones with 1000 comments. What can I say that hasn't already been said?
I know llamas look like a hassle, but I've found a small joy in giving them to lots of people. I like receiving them, that makes me happy, but giving llamas for no reason is just as fun
So yeah, this chick is a ninja-llama-faver
MISCELLANEOUS FAVORITE CHARACTERS
Paxton Fettel, Alma (F.E.A.R.)
Handsome Jack, Zero, Sir Hammerlock, Tiny Tina, Moxxxi (Borderlands)
Treavor Pendleton, Daud, Samuel (Dishonored)
Eddie Gluskin (Outlast)
Hannibal Lecter (Silence of the Lambs)
The Joker (Batman)
Mello, L (Death Note)
America, Japan, Germany, Sweden, Finland (Hetalia)